Big week, but let’s concentrate on what matters most, our mental and emotional states. No matter what happens, there are those around me that aren’t affected by such events, and they need me in my best mental and emotional state. Also, we are at 13 days for Luna to turn two-years-old (Dios nos coja confesados 😂)
Work, for these past two weeks or so, I feel it to be a little stressful. A lot of things going on and for some reason I am finding myself, not having a good time. My wife, in all her wisdom, suggested I need to disconnect, take some time off, even if it’s just one day. She might be right but even that, stresses me out. Since I have started this job over a year ago, I have taken only one day off, not counting holidays. But also the thought of been away from work a day or two worries me. Yes, other people can do what I do but most of them haven’t done what I do since I took over those responsibilities. What if they need me? I hat if something gets missed? Etcetera… Like having a hard time letting go.
Still, I do feel in my heart that I need to disconnect a bit. Recalibrate myself, sort to speak — recharge.
I am always at work before sunrise these days. This morning, on my way to the main building I’ve witnessed the most beautiful sunrise I’ve seen in a while. My first reaction was to get my phone out off my pocket take a picture and continue my way into the building. Once I had my phone out and opened the camera app, I realized that the picture I would have taken would not make true justice to what I was seeing. Instead, I put my phone back into my pocket, and enjoyed the view. Just paused for a few minutes stared at the sunrise, and enjoyed the moment.
That picture would have eventually either made here to my blog or just be lost in the camera roll. Sometimes it’s better to paused and enjoy the moment.
The closer we get to Election Day, the more both my anxiety and fear grows. I don’t want to relieve those feelings from 2016. In fact this year, they’ve been much worse because I’ve had four years of “experience” with this administration and I know how bad we have it.
The worst part, every time I look on Twitter or other venues people are saying “This guy [Trump] has a high chance of winning this election”. Just the thought of it, makes me sick to my stomach and all I want to do is cry. I’m not sure if it’s out of fear, anger, or just anxiety. Whatever my feelings are, I don’t like them and I hope they don’t become real.
I don’t want have to say out loud again, “I’m glad my girls look white”.
Please vote!
Day One entry, from seven years ago today,
Had an idea today! I should probably say something about the baby on the next meeting, I mean next week. Say something like “well I’m promoting myself!” Lol, seriously tho I can wait to see baby again, I hope everything is good!
Alexander would have been 6-years-old now 👼
This week I have been again in a little of a conundrum. I have been extremely lazy these past three months by not working out or staying as active as I would like. This week I had decided that enough is enough and trying to get back into staying active and working out and all that. On Monday I went to the gym, it was more crowded than I would have liked. Normally, at that time of the day, it shouldn’t be as crowded as it was. Luckily for me, I think, I usually do my workouts in the fitness classroom they’ve got set up and I am by myself throughout the whole workout. Even though I am pretty good at disinfecting things before and after using them, I am still touching things and whoknows maybe I’d forget to disinfect something before and/or after. Also, it seems like we are having another spike in cases, which makes very nervous about going back to the gym. Here are my options, do I risk it and try to be as careful as I could posibily can or stick to running, body weight and kettlebell workouts at home.
Darlin' you got to let me know
Should I stay or should I go?
I think we all know this song by The Clash, a song that it is older as I am, well maybe a year older. Anyway, this song, every time I listen to it now it was a different meaning, sort to speak, from the first time I remember listening to it. I would not be surprised if the first time was on Guitar Hero or a Rockband video game. If I recall correctly, at the end of 2017, I was working at a local biotechnology company and there were rumors of restructure and layoffs, and of course, we were all on edge. One day they scheduled a series of individual meetings with the staff, myself included, and we all quickly figured out it was a meeting to either let you know you still had a job or not. My meeting was scheduled for the afternoon. Yes, I remember being very anxious, I needed to know. I usually stay very positive around bad times. I favor not to worry about things until there is something to worry about, probably not the best practice. I remember we were at the office, talking and joking, trying to keep it as normal as we all could. Fifteen minutes before my meeting, I joked about entering the meeting room with my phone playing Should I Stay Or Should I Go by The Clash. My buddy laughed and told me he would give me fifty dollars if I did. Little did we know that we wouldn’t see each other ever again after my meeting.
You are all going to die down here
Last week I had decided to re-watch the entire RE movie series, starring Milla Jovovich 😍😍😍. Mostly because it’s October, Halloween and this is my idea of horror movies 😅
I Always remembered enjoying the first two movies a lot. On Extinction (2007) is when things start to get weird with Alice getting supernatural powers and whatnot. Powers that then later get taken away but she still kicks as if nothing happened 🤔.
I think watching these movies back-to-back it's definitely an experience, except for the "Previously on Resident Evil" kind of thing at the beginning of every movie. Extinction and Afterlife are okay. I did enjoy Retribution quite a lot, although, I had forgotten about that movie entirely. The Final Chapter was also a good watch, in my opinion.
If I had to rank them;
The Umbrella Corporation’s deadly T-virus continues to ravage the Earth, transforming the global population into legions of the flesh eating Undead. The human race’s last and only hope, Alice (Milla Jovovich), awakens in the heart of Umbrella’s most clandestine operations facility and unveils more of her mysterious past as she delves further into the complex. Without a safe haven, Alice continues to hunt those responsible for the outbreak; a chase that takes her from Tokyo to New York, Washington DC, and Moscow, culminating in a mind-blowing revelation that will force her to rethink everything that she once thought to be true. Aided by newfound allies and familiar friends, Alice must fight to survive long enough to escape a hostile world on the brink of oblivion. The countdown has begun.
I had forgotten that this movie even existed. I feel like I am watching it for the first time I am actually digging it! I’ll give it tres chocolates 🍫🍫🍫
Yeah, but what I mean is I’m sensing rising anger in me.
— Olaf
It has been over a year since I have started the job where I am now. Never have I ever since, I’ve had many complaints. But in the past two days, well, I say the past two days because it’s when I have become aware of it. Little things here and there have started bothering me and building up. It takes a lot for things to get to me, especially work-related. It is a weird feeling and I like it very little.
That being said, I love my job, and I will shake it off.
Stay classy,
Wash your hands,
and wear a fokin' mask 😷
I feel drained and exhausted from all the political tension. The stakes are high, and it is very polarized. The people are angry and or scared (I know I am), and it will probably get much worse the closer we get to Election day. I am not sure if it’s the older (and hopefully wiser) I get, these things affect my mental health in ways that it never did before. I feel like times like these bring the worse in humanity. Social media, misinformation, the pandemic, among many other issues, it’s a lot, it is a lot to deal with mentally. Not only do I want all this to get past us, but I also fear for what is coming.
Dylan O’Brien stars in this thrilling adventure delivering epic action and laughs. After monsters take over the world, Joel (O’Brien, The Maze Runner) and the rest of humanity are forced to live underground. Believing he’s lost everyone he has ever loved, Joel finds his high school sweetheart Aimee (Jessica Henwick, “Game of Thrones”) living just 80 miles away. Facing unknown dangers that stand in his way, Joel must discover his inner hero as he makes the impossible journey across a monster-infested land to be with the girl of his dreams. Also starring Michael Rooker (Guardians of the Galaxy) and Ariana Greenblatt (Avengers: Infinity War).
Stumble upon this today on zee Apple TV 📺, I am very curious about this one.
I think my phone hit the floor really hard yesterday. I mean, obviously, the back it’s cracked but the most random thing yet happened today. I arrived home from work and started to get lunch ready (as you do) as well as my work computer so I could join our check-in meeting. Not only my computer was acting all weird but my phone started talking.
For a moment I tough I had connected to the zoom-meeting and two of the girls in the lab were talking. With the only difference that it wasn’t a work related conversation but rather about climate change. I didn’t think any of it for a second since the meeting didn’t officially start. When I realized that the voices weren’t coming from the computer but from my phone.
The weirdest thing was, I had no idea where it it was coming from. What’s it my podcast app? Unlikely, all I had in my queue are 3 podcast episodes all with dudes. Music app? It was clearly a conversation, podcast format, like interviews type, not music. There was no audio controls from any app on the screen or on the Apple Watch. All I could do to make it stop was to turn off the phone and turn it back on.
Either my phone has gotten bonkers or the chocarreros spirits…
What if a child from another world crash-landed on Earth, but instead of becoming a hero to mankind, he proved to be something far more sinister? With Brightburn, the visionary filmmaker of Guardians of the Galaxy and Slither presents a startling, subversive take on a radical new genre: superhero horror.
I felt uncomfortable watching this movie, I mean, like I feel with any horror movies. It is Crazy-Town Banana-Pants!
I know what I feel but don’t know how to say it. Twenty-twenty is the worst, for many reasons, at least in my world. More specifically, because it’s elections year. Everything I see and read is bad, very bad, and very depressing. I’ve got a lot of feelings about everything that is going on moreover, a lot of fear. As positive as I want to be, I fear the worst.
To keep my sanity and mental health, I have been trying to “clean-up” my digital life as much as I can. I have filters, I have muted and unfollowed. I avoid anything and everything that would strike a chord and that would make me angry and it’s been working.
What about real life? What about my environment? I live in Idaho, Boise-fokin-Idaho. As far as my political views and beliefs, this is the worse state 😅. It is hard to drive around town and not see big monster pickups with a Trump flag or a confederate one, paired with the American flag. This is something I can’t mute, this is something I cannot unsee or ignore and it’s getting to me. Every time I look through my front door or window, I see this humongous American flag in one of my neighbor’s house, and right underneath, Trump’s. I leave my subdivision and on my way to the main road, at least three houses, with an American flag and a Trump one right next to them. On my commute, I always will with a hundred percent certainty, I will encounter big trucks with flags. I grind my teeth, every time, sometimes to the point that then my head and teeth start hurting. I get angry and depressed, deeply sad, and full of fear.
As I am typing this, my wife is filling her ballot and I will do mine right after. The saddest part is that I doubt my vote will change anything at all! Or at least in my state. If I am going to fill that ballot will be more out of principle and with the hope that people will be wiser. Then again, this is fokin Idaho.
About time they added this album to Apple Music.
They have others but I dare to say that my wife and I have listened to this album the most. On top of that this band has a very special place in my heart. I have very good memories of the times when we discovered this band and also it was my wife’s I and first concert together back in Puerto Rico, many many coffees and beers ago.
Trying to overcome self-censorship - Chris J Wilson
I will get to the end of writing a post and then delete the whole thing because it feels stupid, or I am the wrong person to write this, or perhaps there will be negative repercussions to me sharing this post.
I can most definitely relate to this. There have been many times where I would write something and double guess myself whether is worth posting or not. In fact, I currently have written something over the weekend that I am having doubts about posting it or not.
In my life, just like most of us, I’ve done a few things that have made me feel nerdy. right on top of my head just to mention a few have been, rooting my android phone and installing a custom ROM for the first time. Another, jailbreaking my iPhone 4 for the first time, installing themes, as well as weather widgets, and having to mess up with the p-list so it would work properly. Fixing my MacBook Pro after been “bricked”, sort to speak. Most recently, mapping the double tap on the back of my iPhone 11 functionality so launch the camera. This week, was “creating” and automation for when I plug my iPhone to a charger, it will speak “cheers” 😂
I know it’s silly but it brings me joy. Also, I chose “cheers” because it was the first thing in my mind when setting it up. I need something cooler 😎
Them vidjia games, especially on this last generation of consoles, have some sort of photo mode. Where you can freeze a moment in time, manipulate it, and have a nice “screenshot” basically. I have never been to keen for this particular feature in games until, Ghost of Tsushima.
And here is why.
If you read this blog, you are well aware of my fascination – or obsession – with Ghost of Tsushima. Currently, I am in my third play-through of the game, anxiously awaiting for the upcoming update. The game’s gorgeous, a lot of times I find myself just wondering around and admiring the scenery. The developers of this game have put to much work and it looks so amazing that it would be a crime not to marvel at it. This has made me dabble a little bit into the photo mode. Especially when I saw what these guys on twitter, also known as “virtual photographers”, are doing with these pictures. They are amazing and they’ve inspired me to make my own “virtual pictures” of this game.
Here are some of my favorite images for Twitter user The Fourth Focus;
It is impressive the amount of things you can do on this photo mode.
Another guy that’s making amazing virtual photography on this game, is Bedan Kimeira.
As I had mentioned, these guys are inspiring me to try to do my own thing. I definitely have much more to explore to get as close as these images.
Here are a few I had taken myself.
Still not even close, in my opinion but it is a lot of fun taking these snapshots and play with the settings to get this outstanding images.
I am not sure if it’s too much time on my hands at times or is it boredom or what, but I find myself fiddling too much with my site. By fiddling, I mean more like switching themes back and forth, usually between Marfa and Kiko, probably my two favorite theme templates available. I also like Hello a lot but “On this Day” doesn’t work on it and that’s kind of a deal-breaker.
I need to forget I have a blog! Just concentrate on posting and forget about how it looks. Realize that most people will read it – if the read at all – using an RSS reader. Thus, make me the only person in the world (I think) that cares about how my blog looks.
This morning I had switched my site to Marfa – again. Comeback by the end of the week and see what I got next.
Unless I take my own advice and forget I have it.
I worked from home today, no Grandma-care. It was a relatively a slow day, work-wise, there’s never a slow day when it comes to the girls. As per her schedule, Luna took a nap around 1:00 pm. It was 2:30pm when she woke up. Of course, she’s yelling papa and there I go. I laid down right next to her, she laid on my chest, next thing I know, we were both asleep 😅
The fact that I am hosting a blog, and here on Micro.blog of all places, is a slight indication that I am a nerd and a technology enthusiast. I mean this is not absolute but in my case, let’s say. At some point at over the weekend I was thinking about, how did all these start.
Yeah, I have always been attracted and curious about technology, more so since high-school. Always been some low-level tinkerer and very curious. But never got into software programming or any of what I consider high-level tinkering. For me, it was simple stuff. Probably because of the environment I grew up in. I mean I grew up in Puerto Rico and it wasn’t until maybe the late 90’s when I got my hands on a computer for the first time. Windows 95, I remember, and probably the only tinkering I did was installing unreleased software, like Windows XP at the time and installing a CD-Burner.
I had my first cellphone when I was in senior year of high-school and it was under a 90 mins per month plan for the first six months then 60 minutes per month after that in a two-year contract, yikes. It was more of a tracking device so my parents could get a hold of me when I was out and about at my girlfriend’s house or at the “Arcade”.
So yeah from that point on I became very interested in mobile devices but just for the fun of and the technology. I’ve had many cellphones, the most memorable two were my first and last, a Nokia, the one you could swap the front face cover and the Motorola Razor. Then, 2007, the iPhone was released to the world, to me though, it flew under the radar. I knew very little about it or simply didn’t care about this kind of technology. 2008, I moved to the United States, still had what would be considered today, a dumb phone. It was some kind of slide-up phone, at the time I was still fully making calls and rarely any texting. I always hated texting on these phones.
Another thing I feel like I need to mention. When I first moved to the States, it was a huge cultural shock for me. I was in a place I’ve never been or knew anything about. I needed to adjust to the language and the different lifestyle. So in many ways, I had lost who I was and my interests. So I wasn’t concerned so much about, what was the latest and greatest in technology and whatnot, I was just trying to get by and adjust.
One day, I remember, this must have been 2009-10, my wife comes around and say she’s excited about this phone, a smartphone. I remember her saying something on the lines of, “it’s so cool, it’s a new thing called Android, looks super cute”. To which then I show some interest and looked into it a bit. It was the HTC Droid Eris with Android 2.1, yikes! And with this phone, is when everything started! The worse thing was about learning about “rooting” and ROMs. Do you know how many times I screwed up my phone and then the satisfaction of “fixing it”? I think after that I became more attracted to this technology. Still, I had no desire or knew much about the iPhone, I was having too much fun with Android. After the Eris I think I had a Samsung, cannot remember which and then a Motorola DROID X. That was probably the best Android phone of that generation. It wasn’t still quite there yet, I remember I still had to Root the phone and install custom ROMs to make it more battery efficient and even got a bigger battery for it. That surprisingly didn’t add much bulkiness to the phone at all. It was solid and I could go almost two day on one charge.
Then I was so into rooting, customizing my phone and tinkering with it in many ways that became too much, it was like an addiction. At this point I was more aware of the iPhone. My bothers in-law had the 3GS and they always talked about how amazing the phone was and later, the iPhone 4 had just came out to Verizon. My mother in-law had one and I had chances to play with it and I liked it a lot. I even started customizing my Android’s Home Screen to make it look more like an iPhone.
One day I had it, I got sick of having to tinker with things so they would work for me the way I wanted and that’s when I decided to call Verizon and get an iPhone 4. And in a different direction, everything went down hill from there. After that my wife got the iPhone 4S which I remember I also got in white and it became this thing where I had to get the latest iPhone every single year. Up until recently, I feel like I am more patient, maybe because these last few generations of iPhones have gotten so good that upgrading every single year might not be necessary.
Thinking back, we have come a long way since the iPhone 4, and I use the 4 as a point of reference because it was my first iPhone, right.
So yeah, this thing I got for phones and its technology, I totally blame my wife. 😜
Health update for September 28, 2019.
- Initial weight: 220 ponds
- New weight, 197 pounds (posted with confetti)
My favourite “Fuck it!” shirt fits again. So my favorite Batman ones. My jeans are starting to fall, better get new ones otherwise it can turn into an HR issue at work.
Well, that was a year ago today
Current weight, 208.
My “Fuck it” shirt fits but not as comfy 😂
My Batman shirts do fit
Jeans, well, just a different pair and they do fall 😅
A week or so ago I’ve lost my wallet. I lost my debit card, my PayPal card and my super secret company’s travel card, and my driver’s license. Everything is replaceable, well, almost everything. So far, I’ve gotten a new debit card, today I got a new PayPal card, I am yet to get my company’s card replacement and my license. The DMV it’s super slow for these things, so I am not surprised I haven’t gotten my driver’s license yet.
What I am not going to get replaced, is the wallet. I am mourning this wallet. It was the best wallet I’ve ever owned. Bought it about three years ago from Pad & Quill and hadn’t bought another wallet ever since. Sadly, they don’t have it on their site anymore. Now I need to go wallet hunting and it’s probably just as bad as job hunting 😅.
My fitness august challenge is to close the exercise ring 25 times. This month I kinda sucked at it but that’s besides the point. What about those few days where I got 60 plus minutes of exercise, like today. The ring requires 30 minutes of exercise. Shouldn’t I get credit for the extra time? I mean, this isn’t rocket science, it’s basic mathematics.