I love anime shows (and movies), I’ve been a fan of them since I was a kid! I do remember my first few starting with RUROUNI KENSHIN (or SAMURAI X), I loved this tv show, especially the Leyend of Kyoto story ark. So much so that I have the Boxset. Also another all-time favourite TEKKAMAN BLADE or TECHNOMAN, I remember watching this one until the very end,I have the entire collection for this one. There are other shows for sure but these two are the ones always on top of my head.

Anyhoo, these tv shows can be jam-packed with action, weird characters and extreme violence. Even though I am all too familiar with these facts about Japanese animation, every once in a while I’ll watch something so disturbing that will make me deeply uncomfortable.

There’s a tv show on Netflix right now, a Netflix Original called KENGAN ASHURA.

Ohma Tokita enters a hidden world where corporate disputes are settled in brutal gladiator bouts. Forget the money, he just wants to fight – and win.

This tv show is right up my alley, it’s ridiculous over-the-top fighting — very brutal! They have recently added its second season which made super excited to jump back into it.

Last night thought, there was a particular episode that I had a hard time watching. I feel very uncomfortable around certain subjects or situations, not just in anime but in general. I don’t do well with any type of torture or things of that nature. Anything that renders a human being helpless and unable to do anything about it, I just can’t. Last night was such an episode and oh man did I had a hard time watching!

Still watching it though, the next episode was much less disturbing 😉.

Yesterday my commute back to the house was quite an adventure. instead of the traditional route, I went on a different one. My commute back from work is different from the one in the morning, it’s more country like. However, I went through a different road and it was even more country and a whole different scenery. I have been meaning to start taking pictures of this area, the only problem is that there isn’t enough area to park on the side of the road. Either that or I’m just scared to do so. 😅

Today there is no commute, though. Today I work from home.

I have been asking myself, What did I do wrong? How did I managed to fuck everything up? All I know right now is that I don’t know what I want really and how to fix my life. One step at a time I guess.

This is part of a journal entry I wrote 2-years ago, today. I don’t really want to remember or relieve these feelings, ever again. Yet every now and then they come back to hunt me and they’re frightening.

inessential by Brent Simmons turns 20!

Wow! Twenty-Fucking-Years! This is amazing and a big inspiration for me! I have only been playing blogging for close to 3-years now (only counting Wordpress and Micro.blog, obviously). But 20-years!!!? It makes me wonder how long I’ll be doing this for, and hopefully, Micro.blog will be around for a long long time.

Loved this the most:

Old proverb: “The best time to start a blog is 20 years ago. The second-best time is today.” :)

Is it, somewhat, hard to stick to Blogs, the same way it may be with podcasts? A while ago I remember writing something about, taking a break from certain podcasts shows. I wonder if the same goes for Blogs. I have a few blogs in my RSS that lately I don’t even bother reading, for now. Like big “Names” blogs.

I was looking through my list of podcasts and noticed that I am still subscribed to shows that haven’t post anything new for a wile. This particular one hasn’t posted anything since August 2018. I refuse to delete it from my queue though (😅). I miss Nerds on Drafts (😢).

Last night we watched the first episode of His Dark Materials

Based on author Philip Pullman’s beloved trilogy, His Dark Materials follows Lyra, a brave young woman from another world. Lyra’s quest to find her kidnapped friend leads her to uncover a sinister plot of a secret organization, encounter extraordinary beings and protect dangerous secrets.

I really enjoyed it and its got a good cast of actors (and actresses). Really curious where it’s going.

According to the scale this morning, I am at 195 pounds, that’s about 25 pounds lighter than a few months ago. It’s funny how I weigh myself every Monday morning. It’s like a way to judge how well or how bad I did over the weekend 😅. I will weigh myself on Friday and see if there’s any difference by then.

Is it just anxiety, is it depression or a little bit of both? Now, this is me opening up a little bit. Most Mondays are a little blue for me, not sure why. I am not sure if it is just the typical case of “Mondays sucks” kind of attitude. Either way, I feel very off, I know for sure I did take my medication last night. It is not my job what’s causing this unease feeling of anxiety.

There are many things I love writing about in this space of mine I call a blog. I don’t like to talk about some personal struggles too much. The idea of this blog of mine was to celebrate the things I am excited about or interested in and not so much about negativity. But if I put these feelings out there, it means that I am acknowledging them as something real and that I may be able to do something about them. It’s just that sometimes that particular issues, struggles, and feelings can feel a little embarrassing to talk about – I don’t like to write about them.

I don’t think this is just a case of “Mondays sucks”, I know exactly what I am dealing with here. And to be honest I am not sure how to go about this. As much as we plan and try to be mindful, things get out of control sometimes. I try to always be composed and positive about it, that somehow we will come out of it. That we will be stable again. But days like today I just lose all positiveness and sight of my goal, stability. I get anxious, angry and very frustrated and no one to blame bust bad decisions from past Me.

In conclusion, Adulting sometimes sucks!

Today was strange, I opened my garage door and guess what, it was “daylight”! Then I remembered time has changed and all that jazz. That wasn’t the strangest thing this morning, though, it was the traffic. I don’t know exactly what was going on this morning but I was stuck in traffic in places where there’s usually no traffic at all or very minimal. Maybe is commuters getting used to the new time or whatever? Other than that, smooth ride to work, no accidents to report today.

Brent Simmons:

A feature is pretty much never as easy as it seems.

I see this all the time. I have probably been guilty of this myself at some point. “I don’t understand why we don’t have this feature yet! It should be just a damn-line of code!!” Baaah!!! “This developer doesn’t listen!” Baaah!! RIOT!!! 😂

As if we knew any better.

But I would ask that you try not to call something easy. The developer of that app will have a pretty good idea of the requirements and the level of effort, and it’s never as simple as it looks on the surface. And they also have a good idea of what needs to happen, for various reasons, before work starts on that feature.

🛎 (ding!)

I have been reading and listening for the past few years, about the whole whether you can do everything on your iPad or not debacle. And more so recently since (the half-baked) iOS 13 came out. Although iOS 13 was supposed to be the shit, people are still struggling whether the iPad Pro (or whatever iPad you may have) is best suited for their needs or not.

I personally grew up doing all my stuff — whatever that stuff was — using computers, mostly windows. It wasn’t until the first iPad Mini that I sort of got into the iPad ecosystem. At the time it was all media consumption — comic books actually. It wasn’t really until the 10.5" iPad Pro that I even consider it to do more with. Before the 10.5 it was all on an 2015 MacBook Pro (non-retina) and later the mid 2017 13" MacBook Pro.

I still have the MacBook Pro of course but if I’m being honest I don’t use it much these days. Now you’re expecting me to say “I only use my iPad Pro!”. Well let me tell you, 75% of everything I do on iOS, if not the 80%, it’s on my iPhone XS. Most of my blog posts are composed using my iPhone because most of the time my iPad it’s on my backpack or I have no access to it — for whatever reason. If I’m being honest, I most likely got my iPd Pro out of FOMO and not because it was gonna change my life for the better. All the cool kids got it, all the cool kids were using it and loving it so if didn’t have one, I wasn’t doing it right. I do like it myself, not gonna lie, but I knew I didn’t really needed one when first unveiled. Yet, I still got one and I do love it but I don’t swear by it to be any better than anything else I was already using. Maybe except for the fact that is much more portable but that’s it. I am not a power user nor an automator of any kind. In fact I have very little shortcuts and atomation systems, it’s all done from one place, my phone (or iPad) using Drafts.

Something I have sorta of figured out recently is that, it’s not about where I’m doing what but what’s accesible to me at that moment for a specific task. Some things just work for me using my phone because it’s in my pocket at all the times. Sometimes I feel a little hipster-ish so I would use my iPad Pro, if accesible. The MacBook, well it usually stays at home and I very rarely reach for it honestly but it still a great device to do stuff on, again, it’s just what’s accesible at the time.

Ultimately, don’t force things down your throat, just use whatever works for you and not what everyone else is swearing by. (I need to apply this to myself too) I feel like most of the time we try to make things work for us simply because everyone else in the mother is.