The closer we get to Election Day, the more both my anxiety and fear grows. I don’t want to relieve those feelings from 2016. In fact this year, they’ve been much worse because I’ve had four years of “experience” with this administration and I know how bad we have it.

The worst part, every time I look on Twitter or other venues people are saying “This guy [Trump] has a high chance of winning this election”. Just the thought of it, makes me sick to my stomach and all I want to do is cry. I’m not sure if it’s out of fear, anger, or just anxiety. Whatever my feelings are, I don’t like them and I hope they don’t become real.

I don’t want have to say out loud again, “I’m glad my girls look white”.

Please vote!

Day One entry, from seven years ago today,

Had an idea today! I should probably say something about the baby on the next meeting, I mean next week. Say something like “well I’m promoting myself!” Lol, seriously tho I can wait to see baby again, I hope everything is good!

Alexander would have been 6-years-old now 👼

This week I have been again in a little of a conundrum. I have been extremely lazy these past three months by not working out or staying as active as I would like. This week I had decided that enough is enough and trying to get back into staying active and working out and all that. On Monday I went to the gym, it was more crowded than I would have liked. Normally, at that time of the day, it shouldn’t be as crowded as it was. Luckily for me, I think, I usually do my workouts in the fitness classroom they’ve got set up and I am by myself throughout the whole workout. Even though I am pretty good at disinfecting things before and after using them, I am still touching things and whoknows maybe I’d forget to disinfect something before and/or after. Also, it seems like we are having another spike in cases, which makes very nervous about going back to the gym. Here are my options, do I risk it and try to be as careful as I could posibily can or stick to running, body weight and kettlebell workouts at home.

Should I Stay Or Should I Go

Darlin' you got to let me know

Should I stay or should I go?

I think we all know this song by The Clash, a song that it is older as I am, well maybe a year older. Anyway, this song, every time I listen to it now it was a different meaning, sort to speak, from the first time I remember listening to it. I would not be surprised if the first time was on Guitar Hero or a Rockband video game. If I recall correctly, at the end of 2017, I was working at a local biotechnology company and there were rumors of restructure and layoffs, and of course, we were all on edge. One day they scheduled a series of individual meetings with the staff, myself included, and we all quickly figured out it was a meeting to either let you know you still had a job or not. My meeting was scheduled for the afternoon. Yes, I remember being very anxious, I needed to know. I usually stay very positive around bad times. I favor not to worry about things until there is something to worry about, probably not the best practice. I remember we were at the office, talking and joking, trying to keep it as normal as we all could. Fifteen minutes before my meeting, I joked about entering the meeting room with my phone playing Should I Stay Or Should I Go by The Clash. My buddy laughed and told me he would give me fifty dollars if I did. Little did we know that we wouldn’t see each other ever again after my meeting.