As I am trying to get back on track and in shape, I went for a run today. This will be the first run of 2022 and also the first in a long time, probably close to a year. Today it was about 2 miles (3.22 km)., nothing too crazy.

I am very lazy when it comes to running, in fact, part of me loathes it. But the benefits are far too great. That being said, there are some other things I much prefer, like using the rower. I intend to get one this year, you’ll see.

Not only was it my first run in a long time, but it’s also the first time I go out without my phone ☎️!

Say whuuuut?

I have a series 6 Apple Watch with cellular and never have I ever taken advantage of that. This is the first time I go out and about without my iPhone and streaming music on my watch to my Powerbeats Pro. I guess I was always afraid of, I don’t know, the cellular connection on the watch not being great or something, but never tried it before. Today will be the first of many. It’s so good not having to worry about where to put the phone or holding it whilst running or any kind of intense workout.

A couple of bites (I meant notes) of today’s run.

• I felt heavy, extremely heavy. Like I was wearing a vest.
• Very out of condition. I couldn’t maintain my pace, there were times I was walking rather than running. This run was more like interval running.
• A bit of pain in my feet
• One good thing, no cramps, usually I expect these when I haven’t run in a while.

Looks like I have aways to go still…

A thing I have been trying and failing for months, is to wake up early in the morning, at 5:00am and exercise. This has been going on for months. I have had my alarm set for 5 in the morning since October-November, and al these time I have been snoozing it.

Today, no more snoozing—ish.

I did snooze, one time. Instead of 5:00am, I was up by 5:18am. I got up, changed shorts, went to the living room. I wanted to try Fitness+ again. I have enjoyed (ish) before. I picked up a 20-minute HIT workout. Normally, I would mix and match, 20 min HIT, 10 core and then 5 on mindfulness cooldown.

Well, I either picked the not-so-right instructor or something. My problem with video-home workouts is when they are too cheery, it is a bit weird and awkward, to me.

I stopped the workout, I count it as a warmup, grabbed my kettlebell, switch the Apple TV to music videos and did my thing. A combination of kettlebell movements, core, and push-ups. Then did 5 minutes of mindfulness cooldown and called it good.

This is part of the new routine I want to create for myself. Whether is working out in my living room, go for a run, perhaps some morning yoga, who knows.

I am still trying to break the mold of needing to go to a gym. Going to a gym is all I’ve known, and it is hard to break that. I might go back to a gym at some point, but the way things have been pandemic-wise, I’m not sure if I am comfortable yet.

First we got COVID, then the Delta, then Omicron, now the supposedly Deltacron, and how knows how many more have been that I am not aware of or that are coming.

FKN Quit it 😅

I am spent, tired. When will it “end”? I’m tired of living in constant paranoia and fear. Like I heard in a podcast recently, Omicron is the new Squid Game. Like no matter how much I do protect myself and my family, it is just a matter of time until we just get it.

I feel for the healthcare system’s people, including my wife. She is not in direct contact with patients but the whole system is affected, stressed and overworked. I am also tired of the politicization of it all. Like wearing a mask and/or getting a vaccine, is a political stance instead of common sense.

Tired

Daring Fireball: T-Mobile Has Started Blocking iPhone Users From Enabling iCloud Private Relay in the U.S.

This is some serious bullshit. It has nothing to do with improving network quality and everything to do with T-Mobile selling your usage data. Curious how Apple will respond. I’d say switch carriers if you’re on T-Mobile, but if they get away with this, I fear Verizon and AT&T will follow. 

This is my fear too, that Verizon may follow if T-Mobile gets away with this be-es. 

Discouraged

Whilst I was in Biochemistry, I always felt good about what I was doing. I felt that I was good at my job, that I knew what I was doing, and felt very confident about it. Now I have moved to a different position within the company and pretty much to a different discipline. Even though that my new department (or team) isn't defined by a specific discipline, I do more molecular science than I do biochemistry. Molecular science it's definitely not my area of expertise at all. I do enjoy a new challenge, I very much welcome it, but the more I try to get good at it the more things go wrong and the less I seem to understand it. A special project was "assigned" to me and even though I should have probably said no, I did say yes. Probably because I was either overconfident or just to prove that I was worthy of the task — to prove myself. My first experiment didn't go well but we identified the flaws. The second experiment and a third went perfectly. Now, for the past two days, I have been working on the same experiment and getting unexpected results on both occasions. And can not, for the life of me, figure out what I did wrong. Like I've said before this is not my area of expertise and there's only so much I can think (or try to think) of what could have possibly gone wrong. And I'm feeling frustrated and very discouraged. I am afraid of failure and disappointment to my teammates and my new boss. Haven't felt this way in a long long time and am not sure how to handle it.

January 10th, 2017

36°F Cloudy

I have expressed my frustration with the ongoing pandemic, and I reiterate, I'm tired. I feel like, at this point, it's just a waiting game. It is a matter of when. No matter our best efforts, we will get infected, resistance is futile.

Today, I received an email from Marley's school,

Dear Parent, Guardian, and Staff Member:  
We have information to share with you about a COVID-19 case at our school.  
We were informed that an individual within your child's class has tested positive for COVID-19. Please keep his/her health and recovery in mind.
We no longer identify close contacts with the positive case. Therefore, continue to send your child to school but daily monitoring of symptoms over the next 10 days is a VERY important part of this process. Contact the school nurse if your child has symptoms or is being tested for COVID.  
If your child develops any symptoms, stay home, call your medical provider, or get tested. There are multiple free testing sites in the community including Preventative Health.  

I don't know how to feel about it, or what to do. It is what it is, and we are all fked. 

At this point I even feel a little desensitized from it all, and like I've said, it is just a matter of when.