not so awesome

Whichever my current job is, my main goal is to be efficient and awesome at it. Unfortunately, in my current role, I have found myself struggling a bit to keep up at times. Not sure if it’s simply not having my system/workflow a hundred percent down. Or whether there is too much on my plate. And thus, my system seems to crumble. I have my ups and downs, good weeks and bad weeks. Some weeks, everything flows swimmingly but when I least expect it, something comes up. Something fell through the cracks, I have dropped the ball. Whenever that happens, I don’t feel awesome anymore, or efficient. With that comes anxiety, fear, self-doubt, and the infamous impostor syndorme.